Our Song

Thought this would make you laugh. It became our song. Every-time we were together

I remember this song would always play. I think of you when I hear it now. 

Hope your team scored and you enjoyed plenty of ice cold beers.

If you're sleeping sweet dreams.

Stupid Love(poem)

Stupid love

I can't let you go

I'm old enough to know

In love

You have to  take chances

Its all a gamble

This could be nothing

But it could everything

And I've nothing left to lose

So if you're going to burn me

You better turn up the heat

I've got to find out 

What this is all about

Get you out of my dreams

And into reality

Stupid love

I'm going to take a chance

And let you know

I believe it would be a mistake

If I just let you go

Sweet Dreams ( poem & music)

Another dream

Close my eyes

Feel your breathe on my skin

Get lost in the moment

Though I know in reality

You're miles away                                                           

Tucked away in your own 

Universe of dreams

This is mine, my secret place

Where the sun always shines

And we both share a love

That's sweetly divine

Strong, intense, passionate

You're always wearing that damn jacket

Sometimes you're hair is short, sometimes its long

We laugh, we talk, we play and sometimes we even fight

You might have walked out of my life

But you seems to occupy my mind every night

There is no other place I'd rather be...

Heart For Sale (poem)

For sale: one perfectly good heart

Its got plenty of room

I have no use for it

Don't see any reason to keep it

It ain't served me any good

Nobody around me seems to want it

I'm willing to go cheap                                                                 

I'd even be willing to make a trade

Maybe I can trade a perfectly good heart

For another brain, or maybe an extra hand

Yeah I could really use one of those

Let me know if you're interested

Think of Me (poem with music)

When you hear but won't listen

When you're lookin but you can't see
When you're searchin' for reasons
Just close your eyes and think of me

When the day is long

And it s time to pack up 

And go home                                                   

When you're tired

And just want someone to hold

Just close your eyes and think of me

Just think of me                                                                                          

In your time of need

Think of the possibilities

That we let slip away                           

We could make 

A fresh new start

We'll let the sparks fly

Where they fall                                                        

I got enough 

For the two of us

I just can't take this silence

                                              When you're looking up

                                               And the stars shine bright

                                               When you've had enough

                                               And you want to cry

                                              Just close your eyes and think of me

You're Gone (poem with music)

Its been a couple of months

And there's no sign of you at all

I still haven't been able to stop 

Thinking of you, you surround me

Yet, you're no where to be found

Day times are getting better

I'm at least able to make it through

Nights are still hard, I close my eyes

And there you are every time

I don't seem to have any control 

Over it, Is this what I deserve

I know now why you walked into my life

You were an answered prayer

That a little girl prayed like hell for

Even if you're not ready for the whole

couple thing, we were meant to be friends

I was self absorbed, so emotionally damaged

I had to lose you in order to wake up

I flipped out and got stupid

I guess this was the price I had to pay

This is who I am

I will never blame you for anything

Gone wrong, I always end up

Blaming myself, apologizes for 

Being human, for existing 

Tears (poem with music)

People say alot of things
Don't give up, let go
Be strong, move on
But what happens when

Every time you've believed

In something it fell apart

What do you believe in then?

I know I've made mistakes

I've said things I shouldn't have

I've pissed people off

But it'd be really nice if people stopped                                 

And thought about the other person

The one holding all the weight on her shoulders

The one fighting so hard not to fall apart

Not to lose hope, to find reasons to keep going

The list is getting shorter by the year...

If you care for me than be my miracle

Fight for me,  chase me, be my reason

To believe  

Another Letter

Dear Love,
                  I gave it another attempt. At least you know I valued you alot more than you obviously did me. I tried calling you once again...almost didn't. I've nothing left to lose. I don't know if you're out on the road or if you're at home. I am willing to wait for a short time but I can't wait forever for you to grow up and figure out if you're tired of being alone. Soon I'm gonna have to move due to work being very slow up here where I'm at. I would come your direction but I don't know anyone in that area of the country. I am not going to throw myself at your door and that's a long journey to go for someone who can't even forgive me. I keep holding out for a miracle hoping you're thinking of me at least. I sit here with all these memories of you and me running in my head. Sad how I told you I liked you and somehow I got treated like some kind of criminal. Anyways I'm tired so I'm about to head off to bed. I do have feelings for you but I know I deserve someone who will actually care for me. I can't keep doing this. I just don't have it in me anymore. If you want me than come get me. The door is closing so be quick about it. If you just want to be friends than you've got to tell me.                                                                                    Goodnight,
                                                                                                         Me

Don't (poem)

I've been here before
I've been through the door
I know where it leads
I know what happens to me

Don't play games with me
Don't break my heart
Don't say you care for me
If you're going to tear me apart

You don't know where I've been
You don't know the tears I've shed
I'm only trying to protect me
I'm only trying to save me

So Don't play games with me
Don't break my heart
Don't say you care for me
If you're going to tear me apart

I've heard the lies
I've heard the lines
I've done cried
Can't take no more
No more

Visions (poem with music)

Sitting here alone

This room getting cold

But I'm caught in a moment    

That captures and holds

Visions of you

Coming through

As I begin to wonder

Where you are tonight.

Wish I could there

Sharing in the fun

Standing on the sidelines

Watching as you have fun

I close my eyes

As you come alive

I can hear your laughter

I can see your smile

Something inside of me

Seems to want to believe

That you're out there

Thinking of me, too

The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me (poem)

The best thing that ever happened to me

Just rolled out the door into the sea                              

No sign on the ground as far as I can see

He blew in just like an autumn breeze

Poured down sunlight onto me

And just like the summer heat

I watched him fly away with the honey bee

Never had it occurred to little ol' me

The best thing that ever happened to me

Washed away like Atlantis in history

Yet, I can feel him surrounding me

The magical way he has touched me

Left him wondering through my dreams

Tucked away deep inside of me

                                                                                 The best thing that ever happened to me

                                                                                      Will forever remain with me...

All Around Me (lyrics)

Winds blow across the sea
Night falls in the trees
I can hear you calling me
Your voice soft caressing my skin

All around me
I can feel you
Like a distant memory
Breathing into me

Thunder cracks the sky
Lightning dances in the night
Taste of fresh blood
Waiting for the flood

All around me
I can feel you
Like a distant melody
Haunting me

I can feel you
Need to see you
Come out of the shadows
Take the chains that swallow
Release me, set me free

music

( louder more vibrant)
All around me
I can feel you
Like a distant memory

All around me
I can feel you
Like a distant melody

(softer not vibrant)
Breathing into me
Haunting me

(cut imediantly)

P.S. I was browsing through my folders in my computer and came across this piece I wrote in July. 

Ain't It Funny

Sometimes I think that a
True love can never be I
Just believe that somehow
It wasn't meant for me
Life can be cruel in a way
That I can't explain and I
Don't think that I could
Face it all again I barely
Know you but somehow I
Know what you're about

Ain't it funny how some

Feelings you just can't

Deny and you can't move on

Even though you try ain't

It strange when your

Feeling things you

Shouldn't feel oh I wish

This could be real ain't

It funny how a moment

Could just change your

Life and you don't want to

Face what's wrong or right

Ain't it strange how fate

Can play a part in the

Story of your heart

In Dreams

I've kissed your lips a thousand times              
I've held you close every night

I've talked to you until the dawn
I know this all sounds a bit extreme
Amazing things happen in dreams
I know that you are gone and
I will eventually move on.
Its sad to think such a possibility
Could be swept into the wind
I keep waiting for my turn
Loving foolishly and recklessly
But I have never felt love's burn

Another video

Walk back in
Maybe this time
I'll let you in
I'm not afraid anymore
I'm ready to let go
Of everything
And start over again
I wish we could press rewind
I'd go back to the moments
I had you in my life
I'd spend more time with you

I Have Decided (poem with video)

I have decided to love you

Even though you're not here

I have decided to give my heart

Even though you've disappeared

I will not stop you or beg you to stay

I would never get in your way

I am sorry I didn't realize

You would mean this much to me

When you were right by my side

You walked into my life and left an imprint

On this heart of mine.

So right now where ever you are

Just stop for a second, close your eyes and smile
Someone right now thinks you're awesome!

Not caring anymore

 

I will never forget you. I see your face in the people I met on the street, in the clubs/venues, on the silver screen. I will be sitting here minding my own business going on with my daily activities and right out of the blue I hear your voice. Instantly I turn to find you but have to laugh cause I now you're not here. know you are out there beneath some neon lights with your skilled hands turning knobs on a sound board or you're at a local bar with a cold beer in hand watching the latest game on the big screen. I know you're out finding some adventurous activity that you enjoy doing. I've seen those shots you once had on FB...before we stopped talking to me. I snagged a couple of pics to view in my own personal time. I have turned into a stupid female and got nosy on the internet. I came across a couple more pics here and there. I couple of articles that just proved that I was right. Oh I had myself convinced (still do) that you're out of my league. And if you ever walk back into my life...I'm going to risk everything and try you out. Alright I'm going to take my drunk ass to bed now. Gotta love what vodka & coke will do. 

                                                               Sweet dreams where you are at tonight,

 Hope your team scored and the beers are always ice cold.                             Hugs, Me

Heartache & Vodka

Even More Letters

Dear Love,

             Its been thirteen weeks since we last spoke. I told you that I liked you and now we don't talk at all. I'm left here trying to figure out what I had done that deserved the threats you gave. What I did so wrong to make you literally want nothing to do with me. The last words we said to each other were cold, and heartless. I've tried to apologize but I fear I've only made things worst. I have sat here reflecting back over the times we had spent together before you moved away. None if it seems to add up. I don't know if its just the perception my eyes had caught or if they were real. I wonder if you'll ever walk back into my life and when so we can finally say what has been dying to be heard. I have realized my behavior towards you over the time we've known each other. I had apologized to you for mistreating you and not giving you the chance. Why did you have to walk into my life at the wrong time? My heart was occupied by another guy at the time. It would have been wrong to sleep with you both at the same time. Though not a day goes by that I don't wonder what would've happened if I had kissed you or held your hand. I guess I was too late in opening the door to the possibility of you and me together. I wasn't expecting it to happen right away. Obviously you were in the middle of a tour and we both lived miles apart. I had hoped my confession would have made you happy but I was completely mistaken. The guy I had thought was different just turned out to be like all the others. Yet, I still see him in a different light. I'm trying my very hardest not to love a ghost yet I'm such a fool. I love way too foolishly sometimes recklessly. I care too much and wear my heart on my sleeve. I've had many men use and abuse me. I've had men walk in and out of my life. The only kind of love I've ever known is written in books and movies. I never thought I'd ever understand any of it or maybe I began to accept the belief that I was just destined to be unloved. I can't recall ever being loved at all. I don't even know what it is. Yet, what I felt around you seems to claim the title...that I'm too afraid to even acknowledge. You scared the living crap out of me. Every time you got close to me it seemed like everything just stopped. I was happy and content even for a brief moment. I wish I could describe it but I don't know how. Its purely something that words can't define. And I'm going to leave you at that for now.

                                                                      Hugs & Kisses

                                                                                ME

More Letters

Dear Mike,

                       I'm starting to wonder if you're a figment of  my imagination. I've never been so confused and lost in my life. I've never been so hungover on a guy...especially one that has been gone for nearly a year. I can't even figure out why I got so upset over a phone call. I really shouldn't care that you blew me off. If I really look at it we never were just friends. There had always been something hovering between us. I'm not entirely sure what it is...but I felt it. It scared me to the point that I kept you at a distance. I remember the moments at your place...the way you had made me feel. I'm not entirely sure how to describe the sensations that rocked my body and my mind.I remember driving in that really nice car. I remember the other venues we went to together. The looks I caught from you, standing there with your beer bottle in hand. And of course the last night I saw you before you moved back to your home state. Those memories play in my constantly over and over again. 

I am not sure where you are tonight. Maybe you're tucked into the warm comforts of your bed...wish I could be there. Or maybe you're on another tour headed to do a load-in. Where ever you're at I'm officially missing you. 

                                                                                This is where the letter ends...

                                                                                                         Sweet Dreams

                                                                                                                                Me

                                                                                 

P.S. I would tell this to you directly...except you blocked me from any other communication source  

So this is the only way to reach you. These are also letters I wrote you a while ago but never had a chance to give any of them to you.

Love Letters

Dear Mike,

                     I wish I could tell you how I feel. Yet you’ll probably never read these words. I shouldn't even care yet I do. I find myself thinking of you in ways I know I shouldn't  I’m trying hard to write these things down as I feel you have the right to know. I've never been one to play by any stupid rules. I've never been afraid to take such a risk but here I am pouring my thoughts out into words you’ll probably never read. Even if nothing ever comes out of me telling you , just for you to finally know how I feel is what truly matters. 

I keep envisioning you walking through the door, yet I’m aware that you probably won’t. Real life doesn't work that way. When an opportunity comes knocking on your door, your either seize the moment or lose out. I guess I lost out on something that might have been good for me. Sometimes you can  miss the moon if you’re too busy counting stars. And there I go rambling ‘cause I’m terrified to even attempt to put these damn emotions into share able words. Not that any simple word could even begin to describe the mixed emotions I have been feeling about you. Its like the mere whisper of your name sends my nerves into overdrive. I can’t seem to remember what happened that sent you packing for the hills. It doesn't seem to matter now. All that seems to be of importance is the reality that you’re gone. Not sure if you’re ever coming back again or if the phone will ever ring again. Yet, secretly I find myself silently hoping. This all sounds pretty crazy… I know. 

I have gone over in my head a thousand times what I would do the next time you walk into my life. Honestly for the first time in my life…I’m not entirely sure. All I do know is I wouldn't walk away or walk out. If you made a move I wouldn't stop you. Of course right now you don’t even know any of this. If there was a way to get this to you…it’d be in your hands tonight.              

                                                                              Well this is where the letter ends…

                                                                                                    I’ll leave you now with hugs and kisses,

                                                                                                                                   Me…

When words fail music speaks

                                                       

Love Came (poem)

Love is a game
That people play
Want you when they need you
Push away when it gets deep

Love came
And left again
I felt it go
Left everything tainted
And cold

Love is a game
That people play
An arrow shot through the dark
Shattering innocent hearts

Love came
And left again
I watched it go
Left everything grey
And cold

Back Again (Lyrics)

You disappeared without a trace
Just got up and walked away
Can't believe you'd leave so easily
But you left behind a mess for me

I wish that I could explain
For the way that I behaved
I never planned for this
I don't know how to fix it
And get you back again
I just want you back again

You walked  into my life
 like you were an old friend
Somehow you just fit right in
I did not know it then
That I'd regret you walking away

I wish that I could explain
For the way that I behaved
I never planned for this
I don't know how to fix it
And get you back again
I just want you back again


Its been a year since you left
I'm trying hard to move on
But there's something about you
That won't let me go

Mona Lisa (Lyrics)

Shadows on the wall
Glittery bouncy ball
Sit inside the corner
Tell me is it over

Lightning strikes down
Shadows gather around
Seem to be hypnotized
By the heat glowing light

Move on
Let go
So many things
To do
While Mona Lisa
Etches a painting of you

Shadows on the wall
Voices in the hall
Ticking of the clock
Can not make it stop

Forest goes a blaze
I hear your name
Reaching through the trees
Taking over me

Move on
Let go
So many things
To do
While Mona Lisa
Etches a painting of you

Ever Wondered (poem)

Picked a petal from a rose
Saw you coming up the road
I looked up to see you smile
Watched as you
Stepped into the road
And blew away in the light

Have you ever wondered
If its true
If you're thinking of someone
It means they're thinking of you, too
Oh I hope you do

Threw a rock into the sea
Felt your arms surrounding me
Felt so good to have you close
But it was just your ghost
Keeping me from letting go

Have you ever wondered
If its true
When you're thinking of someone
It means they're thinking of you, too
Oh I hope you do

Miles To Go (lyrics)

Miles to go
Can't let you go
Got my boots on
Gottta track you down
Gotta hurry
I know you won't
Be around long

I'm sitting still
But my head
Is spinning
Round and round

Can't you hear me
calling out your name
Can't hear my heart
Pounding on the wind

Miles to go
Gas in the tank
Can't even think
Gotta get to you
Gotta get to you
Right now
Gotta track you down

I'm sitting still
But my head
Is spinning
Round and round

Can't you hear me
calling out your name
Can't hear my heart
Pounding on the wind

Raw Emotions (lyrics no format)

I don't know much
I want you
I feel for you
If you wanna try
I will too
See if there could be
Something between
You and me
Right from the start
Thought I felt a spark
But I could be wrong
The mind can play tricks
I don't really know
All I know is
Something about you's
Gotta hold on me
Something about you
Won't let me be
I know the only way
To find out
What this is all about
You got to come back around
Lets press rewind
Go back in time
Start over again
Forget eveything
I don't know much
But I want you
I feel for you

Sea of Confusion (Poem)

Up inside my head
Floating in shades of red
He was a friend to me
So why is he affecting me
Am I just lonely
Or Is there something
I was too blind to see
Now he's ignoring me

Hold my head in my hands
I just don't understand
All these emotions
Pulling me under
A sea of confusion

Never planned for this
Yet I'm dreaming of his kiss
His  lips I've never tasted
All the time I've wasted
There he goes again
Up inside my head
Driving me insane
He was just my friend

Hold my head in my hands
I just don't understand
All these emotions
Pulling me under
A sea of confusion

Never got to tell him
All that I am feeling
But I guess its too late
'cause he went away
Guess he'll never know
How much liked him so
Oh oh ohho no

Visions (poem)

I saw you last night
You were there
Leaning against the door frame
I was seated at a booth
Watching as the band played on
The little stage yet
I saw you there
Hair straight and brown
Eyes bedazzled with delight
We danced on the floor
Nothing personal, nothing intimate
Just a very happy couple of friends
Side to side our feet would move
I sat there watching as visions
Of you and me came alive
So bright and vivid, surreal
It was as if the visions
Were reminding me
Of what's gone missing

Don't Know Why (lyrics)

I want you
But I don't
Wanna call you
But I won't
I should
Just let you go
Oh woah woah

I don't know why
You're on my mind
Most all of the time
I don't know why
You said goodbye
And made me cry

I should hate you
But I don't
You shouldn't
Mean anything
But you do
Its the strangest thing
I ever knew ooh

I don't know why
You're on my mind
Most all of the time
I don't know why
You said goodbye
And made me cry

Only Friends (lyrics)

You made me nervous
Made me tremble
That's what I remember
I never told you, ignored it
Didn't want to hurt you

Yet, you proved to me
That it don't Matter at all
We were only friends
That faded in the fall

I don't remember
It was all so blurry
Time spent with you
Over too quickly
How was I to know
You never let it show
Never said a word to me

And you proved to me
That it don't matter at all
We were only friends
That faded in the fall

You walked away
So easily
I was trying to tell you
But I guess it don't
Matter at all
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
That's what happened to us

Yeah, you proved to me
That I didn't matter at all
We were only friends
That faded in the fall

Oh, you proved to me
That it don't matter at all
We were only friends
That faded in the fall

In Front of Me (Lyrics)

 Title: In Front of Me
Style: Pop Country
Tempo: 85 bpm
Emotions: Dark, sad, heartache


Just sitting here thinking of you
Everyday it seems I'm always
seeing you
Even when I don't want to
I try hard not to do it
But here I go again

I close my eyes
And see your face
Boy you haven't faded away
I can see you clearly
As if you're standing
right in front of me

I lie down to sleep
There you are in my dreams
Every night so it seems
Just need you to know
These feelings I have for you
Have of a mind of their own

I close my eyes
And see your face
Boy you haven't faded away
I can see you clearly
As if you're standing
 right in front of me

So many regrets
So many words left unsaid
Find myself silently praying
That you'll come back my way


I close my eyes
And see your face
Boy you haven't faded away
I can see you clearly
As if you're standing
Right in front of me (Repeat)

Yeah I can see you clearly
As if you're standing
Right in front of me

Greyhound Bus (lyrics)

Title: Greyhound Bus
Genre: Country
Tempo-100bpm
Emotions:Light:  Loss, love, desperation

Chorus-I'm on a greyhound bus(5)
               Headed somewhere(3)
               Don't ask(2)
               I'll tell you when I get there(5)


Verse 1- There's a name in my heart(4)
                  I don't know where to start (4)
                  When he said goodbye(5)
                  Tears fell from my eyes (5)

             (Chorus)

Verse 2- I don't know why(4)
                 I let him walk out of my life(5)
                 I don't know why(4)
                 I was too blind, too see(5)
                He could be good for me(5)

Bridge 1-Gotta Find Him(4)
                  Somehow (2)
                  Gotta tell him(4)
                  Right now(2)
Bridge 2- Should've been him(4)
                   I was with all along(4)
                  Gotta find him(4)
                 And tell him I was wrong(4)
       
   (Music for 12 measures)

Chorus (repeat 2x's)

Days Go By (lyrics)

Days go by
You're out of sight
I wasn't worth a try
Cause you said goodbye
That's how the story goes
This I should know

I didn't see the sun
You could've been the one
I was chasing empty dreams
Trying hard to believe
That I could break free
From the memories that cage me
I didn't see the sun

Days go by
Trying to move on
Something about you
Won't let me go
I don't know
What I'm suppose to do

I didn't see the sun
You could've been the one
I was chasing empty dreams
Can't you forgive me
I want so much to believe
That I am worthy
I didn't see the sun


I was counting rocks
Counting on stars
I didn't see the sun
Shinning so bright
I didn't see the look
In your eyes
That now haunt me


I didn't see the sun
You could've been the one
I was chasing empty dreams
Trying hard to believe
That I could break free
From the memories that cage me
I didn't see the sun
I was chasing empty dreams
Can't you forgive me
I want so much to believe
That I am worthy
I didn't see the sun

Days go by
You're out of sight
Guess I wasn't worth the fight
'Cause you said goodbye
That's how the story goes
This I should know
I didn't see the sun
I didn't see the sun
I didn't see the sun

Just A Friend (Lyrics)

Just A Friend
ballad, 60bpm, sad emotional


Why does it hurt so bad
Love we never had
You were just a friend
Now we've come to an end

How quickly
We become enemies
Can't believe
You could be so mean
Don't matter
Never meant a thing

So why does it hurt so bad
Love we never had
You were just a friend
Now we've come to an end

Never expected you
Now i'm left
So broken and confused
Didn't see this coming
But it don't matter now
Its over anyhow

So why does it hurt so bad
Love we never had
You were just a friend
Now we've come to an end

Go ahead walk away
You never meant anything, anyway
Out of sight, out of mind
So why do I wanna cry
Someone tell me

(music)

Why does it hurt so bad
Love we never had
He was just friend
Now we've come to an end

Why does it hurt so bad
Love we never had
He was just a friend
Now we've come to an end

Mike (a poem)

Laying my head down to sleep
Images of you begin to creep
Coming alive before my eyes
First my mind gently rewinds
Moments frozen in time
There we are in your house
Lying there on your couch
Then my mind begins to show
Things I didn't know
I see you standing there in the bar
I can hear the pounding of your heart
Through your eyes I see me leave
I can feel your eyes upon me
As I chase empty dreams
You were silent, never said a thing
Always the perfect gentleman
I wake with strong regrets
All the things left unsaid
A change of heart I finally had
I’m the one whose truly to blame
For treating you that way
Ever since you left and went away
Something had gone a miss
Didn't realize what was wrong
Until dreams of a kiss
Left my emotions in a twist
I wanted so much to tell you
Now I’m lost and confused
You walked out of my life
Forcing tears to fall from my eyes
Guess you did mean something to me
But I was just too blind to see
What was right in front of me