My Feelings Are Up To You (poem)

Strange how these feelings 
Seemed to have manifested all on their own
You want nothing to do with me
And I can't seem to leave you alone
I watch from the shadows as you go about your life
Breaking my heart with every step;leaving me behind
Don't misunderstand me
I'd never step in the way of you being happy
It just tears me in two
Knowing I can't be there to share it with you
I've poured my heart out now for almost a year
Yet, I fear my heart's cry;you can not hear
I feel as if I am to blame
Even though I was the one left to stand in the rain
It doesn't seem to matter now who was at fault
All that really matters now is that you are gone
And I seem to have developed feelings for you 
That happened all on its own
Thoughts of you sprung up on me from out of the blue
Originally I hadn't planned on telling you
Seems that when I called you up and we began to speak
I got these strange feelings flooding through me
The same thing happened when you stood in front of me
Last February at the concert show
I don't even remember how I got home
All I do remember is you were there and then you were gone
That was quiet some time ago, still I can't let go
Though it is time for me to pack up and move on 
I keep trying to find away to get this to you
In hopes somewhere down the line, 
You and I can give this another try
But I will not be the one to make the first move
That will be left up to you